First crush. My first crush, in my entire life...and it's on a girl.
Her name is Gina. She's my co-worker. She's also a lesbian. However, she's also romantically involved with someone else at the moment. So. Not a chance of any future involvement.
I don't know what the hell to DO! I'm crazy about her! I've never had a real crush before--now it's can't eat, can't sleep, obsessive, stuttering, literally walking into walls!
I've had two boyfriends. This is my first female crush (well, my first crush period, but you get the point). Does this mean I'm bisexual, or am I still straight, and just going through a phase? I've fantasized on occasion about girls, but I don't know if it's actually an integral part of my sexuality. I've questioned, sure, but I've never really questioned that seriously.
Part of me wonders if I'm just doing this to get attention. I -want- to be attracted to women. I don't know if that's just to feel different and special, or if it's an actual sensation and I'm still in denial about it. Agh! So confused! What do I DO?!?