Step 1 : Passing

Aidan's picture

So yesterday I took what I feel was a big step towards passing as a male. I cut my hair off, as seen in my avatar. Let it be known that I already frequent the men's section at Hollister. However, my family has no idea that not only am I their son/nephew/grandson, rather than Julia, their daughter/neice/granddaughter/sister, i'm a GAY man! . So when I arrived home with....very little hair, all hell broke loose. My grandmother cried, my mother called me a "fat old dyke", and it was made clear that I was not permitted to make any more decisions anymore because I am "irresponsible". Worst of all, they are insisting I dress in very feminine clothes when I leave the house, so I will not be mistaken for a boy. but that was my intent! . I've been reduced to carrying a large purse to take a change of clothes. If I hear one more homophobic or genderphobic taunt thrown out by my gramma I'll snap. I've spent all day hiding in my room because I don't want to face them.

Everyone builds up this idea of who you are and who you're supposed to be, and i can;t be that girl sometimes two years until I move out sounds like such a short period of time. But its days like these when it feels so far away

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Y - GuRl's picture

bummer

Hey I really admire your courage to be yourself, that takes a lot. But it really sucks about how misunderstanding your grandma and mum are.. I can't imagine having to put up with that negative shit. Just try to stay strong yeah, they have no right to stop you from being who you are.

Uncertain's picture

Your foto looks really nice b

Your foto looks really nice btw.