I was the only one on here for a little while. I don't think thats ever happened to me before. Anyway, I think I'm going crazy. Seriously. Sometimes when I am alone my mind goes into disoriented thoughts about nothing kind of things, like I just sit through a fog all day. and I go through situations in my head that I can imagine really strongly....its weird. So are my dreams lately, interesting, but weird. I really need to get out of the house more to keep me sane.
So I don't think I'm going to come out to any more people for a while now. I've decided I'm not really comfortable enough to have other people know yet. I don't think it will ever come up again with my friend that I already told, so I can pretty much just go on like I am fully closeted still. Not good, I know, but I've been hiding it for so long now that its pretty much just natural. I think even if I did come out to all of my friends, I would still try to act straight so that I wouldn't make them uncomfortable and because I'm not used to just "being me". I have always cared more than I should about what other people think of me. I'm okay with being in the closet for now though, I would only come out so that I could maybe start meeting other girls, but I doubt that would happen around here anyway. I'll probably wait until I start my life, as in move out, before I tell anyone else. But never my family! I don't want them knowing, except maybe my sister. Is it weird that I never want my family to find out?