been awhile...

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wow its really been awhile...this winter i went home, n i met this guy for the first time after we've been chating for 2 and a half yrs...so we automatically hit it off, we talked about basically everything thing from what we like to our life's philosophy, man i've never met such a person so much like me but yet so different at the same time, we where so similar but had so much to find out bout each other, we even had silences but that werent awkward at all a sort of silent understanding...it was so weird but at the same time so sad coz i've got someone else...i dont get why it has to be that way, i really wish that i could have them both :(...

my bf nearly died while i was away, when his best fren called me n said that he was in hospital and he wsnt sure if he was gona make it, i felt like that was the end of the world, i truly felt my love for him at that moment io definitely knew we would be together forever, well thats what i thort, but a month ago i didnt believe in soul mates or love, all this is so sudden, its so confusing, if he is my soul mate, and if he died and i met this other guy when i did, does that make him my soul mate or does it still remain that my bf is my soul mate and becoz he died i'd be alone for the rest of my life never being able to love that way again, can there be two or more soul mates ou there, so wen one passes away there'd be another soon to come along, like it would have been with the guy i met if my bf did die (Forbid)...

anyway i just had to get all of this off my chest...:)