Fighting off depression with AC/DC and worrying about pride parades

utter_insanity's picture

I am currently listening to my newly acquired AC/DC CD ("Back in Black") and fencing with depression. I'm so tempted to listen to some depressing music that describes my mood right now better, but I know that if I do I'll feel even worse than I am right now. My younger sister keeps on popping into the office (which I'm currently sitting in) and "trying to get me to pay attention to her", AKA annoying me.

I wish I could be one of those people who say they don't care about what other people think about their sexuality, but that would be lying. I hate that I'm too afraid to be more open about my sexuality with my family. They know, so why can't I talk about it? I don't know. I'm still getting used to liking girls. I'm trying that whole "slowly start to accept it" thing, but it's agony. WHY can't I talk about my crushes with other people, just because they happen to be on girls? It's not fair. I know, I know, life isn't fair either, but I still wish it was.

I found out when my state's pride parade takes place! It's a couple of months away, though, which stinks. But maybe I can ask my parents about going to it! Since it's not immediately taking place, they'll have more time to prepare transportation and stuff.

What's it going to be like? I've never been to something like this before. I want to try it; I've never been to an entirely pro-gay event/place. But how do I ask my parents about it? I suppose I should take Amelia Earhart's advice on this one, "The best way to do it is to do it." I'll just go up to them and say, "Can I go to the gay pride parade in September?"

I don't know if I have the guts to do that.

Question for anybody who's ever been to a pride parade: What's it like there? If I do manage to ask my parents about it, they'll probably ask me things like that. They'll want to know what they're taking me to.

Well, I have to go play the "Four Square Championship" that my family keeps nagging me about. PLEASE don't ask.

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Sunny Rays's picture

Wouldn't it be nice if life w

Wouldn't it be nice if life was fair. *Sigh* Oh well. Good luck with the "Four Square Championship".

Indifference is the strongest force in the universe. It makes everything it touches meaningless. Love and hate don't stand a chance against it.

icequeen18's picture

it's okay

Usually it's better (even if you don't
like it) to just listen to some
upbeat music. Even when you don't
feel like it, eventually it will
put you in a brighter mood.

"Life is what happens while you are busy
making other plans."
~John Lennon

jojojo's picture

I've been to gay pride parade

I've been to gay pride parades. The first time I went it was really special. Just seeing so many different gay and lesbian people. Older lesbian couples. Men with naked butts. Well yes, lots of people in very unconventional outfits. But also very normal-looking people. Lots of lesbian and gay couples. It was cool.
Also super exhausting, but maybe it's just me who's so easily exhausted by walking in parades, and being surrounded by many people. It was also super loud.

That was in Berlin, by the way, so Pride in the U.S. might be different.

There are usually different sections in the parade, so especially if you are by yourself, look out for one where you feel comfortable. Maybe there is a group with lots of youth. If you find yourself surrounded my people where you don't feel comfortable, just walk slower or wait until there is a section which you like more.

Good luck asking your parents, and if you go, I definitely wish you a great day there!!!

raining men's picture

Music

Listen to some depressing music. It can help a lot

"Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suf-fer-ing"

bratalamay's picture

i got it!

listen to Good Charlotte!!!! (my FAV band) i know people think its "over" and "so yesterday' and all that, but its perfect for a mood like yours, because it sounds like depressing music, but its not! its actually really inspiring music. one of the songs on the second CD is actually called "Hold On" and the chorus goes, "Hold on, if u feel like letting go. Hold on, it gets better than u know." isnt that AWESOME!!!!???? anyway, thats my suggestion. feel better.
Luv ya,
Me

"Don't let sad people make you sad, let happy people make you happy."