I am currently listening to my newly acquired AC/DC CD ("Back in Black") and fencing with depression. I'm so tempted to listen to some depressing music that describes my mood right now better, but I know that if I do I'll feel even worse than I am right now. My younger sister keeps on popping into the office (which I'm currently sitting in) and "trying to get me to pay attention to her", AKA annoying me.
I wish I could be one of those people who say they don't care about what other people think about their sexuality, but that would be lying. I hate that I'm too afraid to be more open about my sexuality with my family. They know, so why can't I talk about it? I don't know. I'm still getting used to liking girls. I'm trying that whole "slowly start to accept it" thing, but it's agony. WHY can't I talk about my crushes with other people, just because they happen to be on girls? It's not fair. I know, I know, life isn't fair either, but I still wish it was.
I found out when my state's pride parade takes place! It's a couple of months away, though, which stinks. But maybe I can ask my parents about going to it! Since it's not immediately taking place, they'll have more time to prepare transportation and stuff.
What's it going to be like? I've never been to something like this before. I want to try it; I've never been to an entirely pro-gay event/place. But how do I ask my parents about it? I suppose I should take Amelia Earhart's advice on this one, "The best way to do it is to do it." I'll just go up to them and say, "Can I go to the gay pride parade in September?"
I don't know if I have the guts to do that.
Question for anybody who's ever been to a pride parade: What's it like there? If I do manage to ask my parents about it, they'll probably ask me things like that. They'll want to know what they're taking me to.
Well, I have to go play the "Four Square Championship" that my family keeps nagging me about. PLEASE don't ask.