.i'm so off.

808Chik's picture

well. i'm not sure where to start. i'm kinda still wrecked by the situation too. but damn. i need someplace to rant and blah, so i can get outta this weird depressing state i'm in. ah. well okie. here it goes:

1) i met the chik from downelink. omg i fell for her really bad & meeting her just made me fall even harder. but the sucky thing is that the day after we met. she said that she was going to be too busy and wouldn't be able to give me her all, so she broke it off and said that we could try again. omg heartbreak. yea i know its only been about 3 or 4 days but it kinda hurt 'cause i liked her so damn much. so yea i moped around and still kinda am now. but then today i found out one of her friends died in an accident, now i feel like shit 'cause she's going through a lot now and here i am feeling like the world is ending. so now i'm ok 'cause i understand what she's going through and its hard.

2) blah. i met another chik. damn where are all these girls coming from? i seriously don't know lol. but yea, met her today on...gosh....yup...myspace. outta all places. but yea she sent me a message, kinda funnie lol...it said: "hi. you don't know me but are you bi or lez?". okie. what a message lol. but i answered and yea started talking from there. she seems really coo and nice. and she asked if i wanted to go out with her. hmmm. i would but the one reason idk that kinda trips me out is that she's still young. well. she's only like 2 years younger than me but idk it still makes me feel a lil old lol plus i would be her first. damn. yea i know. laugh now if you want but for real. haha i know weird but its true. but i'm gonna put that aside and see where this will go just to see what would happen. like they say: "you don't know until you try".

well. i think thats it. blah. if none of it made sense or sounds funnie. then i'm sorry. haha just wanted to get things outta my head 'cause it was beginning to hurt thinking about so much things. this may not seem like much but i didn't want to write all of it down 'cause some things i wanna keep in my head lol. but thnx if you made it this far. i'm so touched lol. okie. laters.

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Sway's picture

Yey, I made it this far! :)

Yey, I made it this far! :)

Two chicks, huh? Lucky biatch! lol I'm sorry for the first one, losing someone so close to you is definitely hard and if she wants some space then you should give it to her.

As for the younger one... What's the problem? How old are you? Ok, I wouldn't date a guy 2 years younger (sweet 16, no thanks!...) but if she's cool, then just give it a try. You could be her mentor, lol!

I just want somebody listening to what I say...

808Chik's picture

haha i'm gonna be 16. but idk

haha i'm gonna be 16. but idk. she's coo its jus that i'm so used to people who actually went through heartbreak and stuff & know what they want, but with her she hasn't experienced that and she seems a lil clingy lol. i can understand how she feels 'cause hey i was a 14 yr old who wanted someone to love but compared to who i am now, i didn't know what i WANTED back then. well. imma see where this goes. wish me luck lol. && thanx sway =)

"i am who i am, so don't judge me for being myself"

Sway's picture

Ur 16, huh? I thought you wer

Ur 16, huh? I thought you were my age... Well, good luck with that! 14-16 sucks, IMO... Well, mine sucked at least.

I just want somebody listening to what I say...

808Chik's picture

yup. why how old are you? in

yup. why how old are you? in a way it kinda does lol.

"i am who i am, so don't judge me for being myself"

Pegasus's picture

I wouldn't worry so much abou

I wouldn't worry so much about the younger one. You like who you like. I really like someone who is 6 years younger than me. And he really likes me. I say take things a day at a time. concentrate on now, and don't run ragged over the future, eh?

Don't Make Me Get My Flying Monkeys!

808Chik's picture

ah thnx. yea i know "whatever

ah thnx. yea i know "whatever happens...happens". yea i'm kinda lost though with all this cause so many people (girls lol) are all coming back into my life & its driving me crazy. but imma take you guys advice and i'll see what happens. thanx pegasus!

"i am who i am, so don't judge me for being myself"