I've been having these dreams...

Sway's picture

OK, so I've been out of the closet for 5 days for my best friend. And I'm kinda dealing. That's not the point. The point is, ever since I finally did it, I've been having these dreams...

My high-school and lyceum and University crush has been George. I've fallen for him twice and both times I tried to do something about it but, after I managed nothing, I pushed myself to get over him. And I have.

I'm not in love with him currently. But I told my best friend I *was* and since then I've been dreaming about him. It's been five days, huh? So, I've seen five dreams of him. Nothing sexual, but every dream was really friendly and it did have a gay vibe in it. Like, last night I saw we were playing football and everybody was kinda grumbling that he wasn't doing his best and he looked at me and kicked the ball *so* hard that it went out of the field, very far away and the coach told him to go get it and he looked at me again, kinda sad because he had to leave... So, I'm wondering... Wtf is wrong with my subconscious?

I wish there could be a way gay people would fall for gay people. You know, so once you fell in love with someone, you would automatically know that they're gay too, no worries, no fear of coming out, nothing. It would be soooo cool!... But, hey, a midsummer night's dream...

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Adam A's picture

meow

omg i'm so way cooler than you, don't you go forgetting that now grasshopper! bout u'r dream, nothing wrong with u'r subconscious, sounds to me like after he looked at you he kicked the ball really hard is kind of a metaphor for other things, twas a perfectly normal but sutble sex dream, now go have a hardcore one and tell us bout it they're more interesting!
take care less cool person than adam
adam (the cool one)

Sway's picture

Well, actually, ADAM, the fac

Well, actually, ADAM, the fact that you keep on mumbling about how cooler you are than me proves you're not! Ha! I let my friends judge my coolness... :)

I really don't need a sexual dream about George, I had my (big) share when I was in high-school. Actually, I ain't got a sex dream (including both gay and straight dreams, as I've had both kinds) for more than 4 years, so it would be a surprise...

But, hey, George, if you want, I can make my dreams come true! HEAR ME???...

I just want somebody listening to what I say...

Adam A's picture

wow you say ADAM in such a sp

wow you say ADAM in such a spiteful way, turns me on! lol, so you might need other people to tell u u'r cool, i don't, i'm in charge of my own coolness!

Sway's picture

Well, ADAM (lol), that's why

Well, ADAM (lol), that's why ur *not* cool! People say I'm cool, so I know I'm cool, but noone is here to testify for ur coolness. Why should I take ur words for it? For all I know, you could be a little geek who imagines coolness... >:->

I just want somebody listening to what I say...

Adam A's picture

hey LOSER! just coz u'r too w

hey LOSER! just coz u'r too weak to know u'r own lack of coolness doesn't mean i have to be, i'm soo damn cool it oozes out of me, so that i know i'm cool, and i don't need anyone to say it, and they all know i know i'm cool, so they don't bother, coz no words can ever articulate just how cool i am. unlike you, who needs people who feel sorry for him to tell him he's cool!

Sway's picture

OK, dude, chill out! I think

OK, dude, chill out! I think we kinda lost control - or maybe the internet lang makes your response seem aggresive... AW

I just want somebody listening to what I say...

Adam A's picture

lol nah tis all good sway hoe

lol nah tis all good sway hoe, i'm jsut joking with ya!

PokemonGeek's picture

At least YOU don't keep getti

At least YOU don't keep getting the reoccuring dream I have!!!! Since about late last September-early October I keep getting these dreams where I'm in one type of a bathroom or another, trying to be alone but can't!!!!

Poor is the man
Whose pleasures depend
On the permission of another
Love me, that's right, love me
I wanna be your baby
Wanting, needing, waiting
For you to justify my love
Hoping, praying
For you to justify my love
I'm open and ready
~Madonna

Sway's picture

Nice to know there's worse! (

Nice to know there's worse! (Nice sig, "Justify My Love"...)

I just want somebody listening to what I say...