i find myself hating myself when i go shopping with friends. Take today for example. Shopping with the girls: Jess, Bonnie, Ashley, and Dani. All is going normal, i get on the 56 (bus) sit up the back, two stops later Ash joins me another stop later Bon jumps on then 3 stops later Dani gets on. We go straight to the food court and get our usuall 'thursday shopping food' Which is low-fat vanilla shakes, and 2 bags of hot chips which we share. We go and sit in the park across from the mall and eat. Normal. Then we put our rubbish in the bin, and go back inside. We head straight for supre, buy a tone of clothes that will just sit in the wardrob for months untill we decide to do a clothes swap, only then can they be worn. ITs our rules lol. weird i know but oh well. Its just our thing. Im gonna miss it when i move. :( Oh well ill live!
Why do i hate myself when i go shopping with the girls? This is why.
Because the 'oh he's hot... i dare you to get his number.....' thing always comes up. And i go along with it, then when i see a cute guy i point him out. I feal ashamed of it really. Like im betraying myself.
i get angry then when i go home i go and sulk in my room. And i just get soo angry at myself. Why? Because i joined in. I feal guilty and heart smashed and lost EVERY thursday.
I guess this means im no longer bi..... i guess iv moved up a level.