been a couple months...

formula_truth_love's picture

Well haven't written an entry for month's now haven't felt emotionally good but i need some support in my life that right now since im not in school I don't have. I miss the people I can only be around during the school year so much that I have stopped calling my friends and just been so down. I have been trying to bring myself up im looking for a job no luck though which doesn't upset me because they are valid reasons why I can't work at those establishments.

I have just wanted to be held so badly or hugged but by someone that when they do it actually makes a diffrence. That person I won't see till a month and some unknown days. It is torture thinking of the moments the days that were so special just because of her how safe I am feeling when with her. She's a friend nothing more i am fine with that but i miss her so much. Everyone in my family doesn't understand why i can't just come out and say hey this women helped me so much that I gave her my heart and can't forget all the feelings that took forever to find until I found her.

Just saying that I miss her and sad to say but life doesn't seem too appealing without her but I keep fighting waking to live another day hoping that one is better than yesterdays.

love, lexi


Hyacinthus's picture

I'm sorry!

I'm sorry you haven't been feeling very good!! But stay strong! She'll return to you before you know it!!! *hugs*

"Persuasive speech, and more persuasive sighs,
Silence that spoke, and eloquence of eyes."
- The Iliad (bk. XX, l. 315), (Bryant's translation)