Well haven't written an entry for month's now haven't felt emotionally good but i need some support in my life that right now since im not in school I don't have. I miss the people I can only be around during the school year so much that I have stopped calling my friends and just been so down. I have been trying to bring myself up im looking for a job no luck though which doesn't upset me because they are valid reasons why I can't work at those establishments.
I have just wanted to be held so badly or hugged but by someone that when they do it actually makes a diffrence. That person I won't see till a month and some unknown days. It is torture thinking of the moments the days that were so special just because of her how safe I am feeling when with her. She's a friend nothing more i am fine with that but i miss her so much. Everyone in my family doesn't understand why i can't just come out and say hey this women helped me so much that I gave her my heart and can't forget all the feelings that took forever to find until I found her.
Just saying that I miss her and sad to say but life doesn't seem too appealing without her but I keep fighting waking to live another day hoping that one is better than yesterdays.