oh my fucking god!!!!!!!!! i cant take this anymore!! i cant have any more close friends dump me like this anymore!! so, for those of you who follow my journal, you know that i WAS in love with this girl that i "went out with" but then she turned on me and spread rumors instead, blah blah blah....well, now that school has started, she doesnt want us to be friends in school b/c shes afraid of people spreading rumors that we're going out (which is stupid b/c shes the one who spread the rumor about me being a lesbian in the first place!!) and on some level, i can respect that b/c i know what its like to have rumors spread about you. but its not just when people are around, its, like EVER!! which really pisses me off b/c we developed a good friendship over the summer. so now, just tonight when i try to confront her, its turns out like this:
Me: so, what? its not just fear of rumors anymore?
Her: will you just drop it?
Her: i don't want to talk to you.
Her: now go away.
Me: what the hell happened?
Me: what did i do???
and then she signed off. so, now after living through another discintegrated (sp?) friendship, im going to go crawl under a rock and stay there forever. or.....no, this time im not going to shrivel up and attempt to disappear. im going to try to stay strong and happy with my NEW friends. but, im not one for revenge, so im not going to do anything to her. i couldnt even if i wanted to. i care too much.
on another (hopefully happier) note: it has been officially confirmed....i am bisexual. yay for me. i would usually be happier about this, but, as you may be able to tell, im a little depressed right now. but, it has been confirmed by my reinstated crush on a boy i had a crush on at the end of last school year (see previous journal entries). so, anyway.....jesus christ, now what!?!?