I'm having a bit of a breakdown right now. I've decided to be out at school and I'm soo fucking scared. I have to do it though. If I do then maybe I can make a difference for some other students. I'm really hating the thought of going back to school, it's been the root of my depression for the last three years. I just don't think that I can go on with being the loner who noone listens to. The good girl. The quiet one. But if I break out of that role then there is going to be a lot of shit for me to deal with. I'm also worried about my little brother. He's coming to the same school as me this year too. So whatever I do is going to affect him. Oh ya. If I haven't mentioned it yet, I think that he may be "not quite straight". So, ya. I'm going to go try to calm down now. Wish me luck.