Bonjour! How are the Oasians today/night? I'm swell! I suppose.....
I think I need new OR more friends (more friends is much better)! Or a girlfriend (I wish) I also need to move out of this town and into a city so I can find more like-minded people who are interested in some of the things I am interested in. Yes, it would be quite wonderful to move! Ah well....While I'm stuck here I guess I could just continue on working to be more outgoing and self confident and such. Then when I do move to a city, I can actually make friends!
SWITCH...I want to talk about something else
I feel as though my life has lost meaning. When I knew I had another year of high school coming in other years, I felt that I had time to sort things out. Now, life is starting and I don't know what to do with it! The things I used to be interested in are too hard to get myself to continue doing and the way I used to act had people liking me, but not really knowing who I was or paying any mind to me at all....I didn't want them to anyway. I know people say its better for people to hate you for what you are that like you for what you're not, but I want everyone to like me!! I know thats not possible, and thats what makes it so hard. *sigh*
I really have no idea how I come across to other people. In person or on the internet. I think I always come up with the worst perception in my head because it seems like I'm always prepared for worse reations than I get....Other people have to tell me how I come across or else I really have no idea. And its pretty much impossible for me to just not think about it! Anyone else feel that way all the time?