My teeth bleed
My gums are streaming
Lips ache, swollen.
Tear,s for kisses of which they will never again partake,
Blood on the floor, on my chin, in your hand.
I'm once again a vampire- a full, fat leech
Plump on your juices
And I've fallen off...
I can't seem to find a way back into you.
I grope with blind,
fingers for your holes, for your crevices;
Seeking to fill you again
"O" "Won't you?" "Let me?"
But I get nothing.
Your body has turned inside-out against me.
Your holes are filled by another
And I pull my fingers away, bloody.
My eyes are bleeding,
Crimson rivers carve my face.
The Nile rises,
I've marked the doorpost too late.
I watch you flee from me through contact lenses smeared
I'd call out to you
but I'd only gurgle blood.
And nothing I might do
will blow life back into
this listless son -
This is for all the people who ever had to face rejection from someone they loved because of their HIV/AIDS status. And for all of the people who ever had their hearts torn out...slowly. Or made a mistake they couldn't take back. (We've all been there)