How come when you come out to people they ask how long you've known? It seems like every gay person kind of knew their whole life, but its when they've realized it that should be the question! I've actually known I've liked girls pretty much forever.....it just didn't register as wrong or bother me until I hit puberty. Its like a lot of little girls don't really like boys when they're younger but they still get kiddie crushes on them. I always got those kind of crushes on girls. But its when you hit puberty that you start wanting to act on crushes, but by then you see how society reacts to same gender couples and have it in your head that its wrong! So really, its not dealing with being gay that gets to us, its how the other people in society percieve us that makes us have the problems dealing with it.
Then there is the questioning of every little feeling of attraction. If you mostly like girls, but then think a guy is hot its okay. Women that are straight think other women are hot all the time! It doesn't mean that their bi, or even bi-curious. Its just appreciating good looking people. But when gay people feel that every thought that has been programmed into them tries to make them get feelings for any person of the opposite gender that they even feel the tiniest bit attracted to......Society is just messed up! Religions and a lot of the "old way" of thinking just gets in the way of nature and really screws with peoples lives!
*just generalizing, I know not everyone feels this way