I want to be out to people....I don't want them to care though. I just want it to be out there and accepted. I could even live with my parents and family knowing. The only reason I don't want them to know right now is because it would be a big deal to them and they would probably not just let it go. My mom would probably worry about me and want to constantly talk about it. I'm pretty sure other people are going to find out soon because I'm not monitoring myself nearly as much and I'm not caring so much if they suspect.
Too bad being gay couldn't be normal. I'm sick of tip-toeing around and censoring myself. I don't like to have very much attention and I'm worried that because its different, people will notice me more when they find out. I think I seem pretty gay (at least I can see it in me a lot) so hopefully other people kind of notice it too so its not such a surprise and then hopefully it will just be something thats just then known and not really cared about. I wish people could just find out somehow without me having to tell them.