I'm new to this site as of about five minutes ago, though I've been visiting
for quite some time. I was scared to join because by posting on this site I will
be proclaiming to the world that I am very confused about my sexuality. Even
though none of you know me, it's still a scary thought, and it's the most public
I've ever been about my questioning. Anyways, I'll tell you how I started
questioning in the first place, and maybe you can offer some advice. Before last
summer, I only had crushes on boys-or so I thought.I never dated them though because I was too shy. I've always checked out girls
but prior to last summer I thought it was only to compare myself to them.
Then I went to camp...drumroll please...and I met this girl. She was just
so beautiful. I couldn't stop staring, and I admitted to myself this had gone
beyond comparison. I wanted to kiss her, and well, continue on from there.
Nothing happened between us, probably because having a crush on a girl scared
me shitless! Since that summer I haven't had a crush on single boy. Instead,
I've had a crush on another girl- though not as powerful as my first girl
crush. What is happening to me? Is it possible to turn into a lesbian? Why
did I only have my first crush on a girl at age seventeen? What do I do now?
I know this is really long, but if you've managed to read through it, could
you please, please, offer me some advice!