I slept over at Sora's. It was... Interesting to say the least. We were going to bed around like, 10:30. We slept on the couch for some reason. And she suddenley remembered that I wanted to talk to her.
It took me a little while, but I said it. I said "I'm a lesbian." And her reaction was totally unexpected.
You know what she said? I'll tell you what she said. She said "That's hot." (Spirits go up.) And then she says "If you get the hots for me I'm gonna run." (Spirits go down.) And then she said that I'm going to turn out bi. And I'm like "No. I don't like guys like that, I don't think I ever will." That was kind of annoying. And then she asked me stupid stuff like "You're still a Yaoi (Shohen-ai. Whatever.) fangirl right?" And I'm like "Yeah, I just like Yuri too." and stuff like that so I'm like "nothing's changed. Okay? I'm still the same person."
But wow. That was so weird. I wouldn't say it felt great. It was kind of akward. (Kind of really akward.) But. Yeah..
I woke up to her playing with my hair. But I didn't let her know I was awake, I wanted to see how long she would keep it up. Turned out to be a while. But then she checked to see if I was awake because my nose was a little clogged.
And, what's weird, is she acts like I didn't just come out to her or something. She still makes jokes about us being together and stuff. Actually, whenever we're both into the same series, we always assign ourselves characters now.. (Well, actually, she's doing the assigning.) And we always end up like, a couple or something. Like Sango and Miroku. (Me being Miroku.) Or Utena and Anthy. (I'm Anthy.) And etc...
But it was really nice today. We were sitting on the couch reading manga. (Yeah, a couch but we still sat really close together.) And she'd lean her head on mine and then stop. It was weird. But eventually we stopped reading manga and watched TV. (Her sister was in the room BTW.) and she leaned on me and I sort of burried my face in her hair. (I like how it smells. Okay?) Every so often she'd look up at me and we'd laugh. But she moved from leaning on my shoulder to having her head on my lap. (She had a pillow but still.) And we'd watch the show. But when it got gross (AKA, making. Ewww.) We'd like, hide under the blanket to block eachothers veiw. And we giggled so much that her sister kicked us out for being so noisy. XD
So we went up to her bedroom. And once we got up there we decided to go down two flights of stairs to bug her sister. She was reading my Utena Manga. And we were being silly again. We were joking and singing. She gave me a piggy back ride a little, and I attempted to give her one. And we danced a little. And stuff... And it's so weird. I expected her to be a little weird around me after coming out. At least for a few days. But she was like really close to me all day.
And the only reason I didn't kiss her while we were sitting on the couch was A. Her sister was in there and B. Beef breath. Yuck. But the cuddling was nice. But ever since she said that she'd run if I fell for her I've been so confused. Heh.
And I sort of accidentally-on-porpuse left my jacket in her room. An excuce to go back there or get her over here. But I didn't plan it. I was out the door on my way back and I'm like thinking. "I left my jacket there didn't I?" And then I think "Oh well."
Oh, and I scared her this morning. She said that she's always being told she has pretty eyes. By boys and girls, so I was like "you do." And she's like "...You just scared me." And I started laughing and said "That's the point."
But she probably can't come to the convention though. So I'm not going if she's not. Because conventions are lame if you go by yourself. And I could use the extra money.
Oh, and my dad knows that I like her now. I went to bug him and I sort of said "How-do-you-tell-someone-that-you-like-them?" And he's like "What?" and I'm like "You're NOT going to make me say that again." And thus, the conversation started. Eventually he guessed that I like Sora. And then he suddenly understood why I've been calling myself stupid. I wanted to tell him that I think she likes me back, (Actually, I think she liked me first.) But I decided against it. But when he suggested I give her flowers I told him that she's given me flowers before, on nermours occasions.
But anyways. I would not have seen that reaction from Sora from a mile away. "That's hot" she said. And she didn't just say it once either. Heh. I'm totally confused. But that's okay, I don't mind.
EDIT: I forgot to mention, since I came out to her, besides her actions, she's been acting more straight since last night. As in, pointing out cute guys or whatever. She hasn't done that in a while.. (Except, at the same time she's been acting more gay too. Don't ask because I have no idea. But it just seems that way.)
It's weird, it's like when I look in her eyes after she says something about me being her "girlfriend" or something. We start laughing. And I have this weird feeling. Sort of like we have this unspoken understanding. (Though in reality it seems like a lack therof.)
Comment please! I'm still not sure what to do with this reaction of hers. Heheh.