Its been a couple of weeks since I made a journal entry but I kind of feel like going on a bit of a ramble
so here I go with another journal entry.
I feel kind of weird today.I don't feel sad but I don't feel happy. Hmmm does that mean I'm content? I don't
think it really does.I think it just means nothing bad happened to me today to upset me, but nothing
particularly good happened to make me all happy.Whatever,at least I'm not all miserable.
I'm still totally obsessing about my sexuality.I'm 21 I really wish I had this figured out by now so I could
just get on with my life!I know that I am very much interested in girls,so its the "do I like guys?" that
causes me so much confusion.I basically don't really know if I'm bi or lesbian.Though I hate the word
lesbian,so I shall just use the term gay for this entry.
I think that I tend to fall in love with girls and physically I am attracted to them.I have had so many
crushes on girls.Then I think about guys and I can look at them and think that some are attractive,but not
really be attracted to them.Its like there is something missing.
I guess it all basically comes down to sex, and I think the thought of being with a girl is way hotter than
a guy,but I know that it is also possible for me to be with a guy,so does that make me bi? And I just
haven't found the right one?
I really want to start taking some steps to coming out but since I am not 100% sure what I am I'm reluctant.
I think that is the main thing that keeps me scared from telling at leats a couple of my friends.I could
just go with bi for now but then I don't want to give anyone any false hope that Im loving guys as much as
Well I guess I better end this entry here.If you have read thanks.