Does anyone else ever feel skeptical that people really like them? I always feel like my friends probably don't really like me and I'm boring. I just can't see that they really want to be my friend. Its more of a "I have known you since preschool so we have to be friends" thing. When a guy seems interested I am skeptical too....not that I care whether he does or not haha! But I always wonder how anyone could like me. Even when it seemed that this one guy had a crush on me for like, 3 years, I still didn't believe it until he started actually coming onto me in the last year. I'm worried I'm never going to be comfortable enough to allow someone to love me because I will always be questioning it.....and probably always chase them away with it or they will think I don't love them back because I'll be too afraid to let myself get attached. It makes my stomach turn thinking about it. I feel like I will never be loved and that I don't deserve it.
I'm just feeling really lonely. But too tired to go out and meet new people. It takes such an effort. It'd be worth the effort though, but I have NO ENERGY!