Um that future wife post in the forum is gross.
Ok. Earlier this year I attended an old friend's 21st, I hadn't seen him in like 3 years. Turns out he's gay, found that out at the party. I was so excited (see previous journal entry). I miss him heaps because we used to be real good mates.. but now we're pretty much strangers and haven't spoken to him since his birthday. Well I somehow came across his myspace (ok so I looked him up just out of curiosity). So yeah his page was pretty brief but linked to his blog. So I was reading his blog, I couldn't stop because my eyes were glued to the screen, he's an amazing writer and I never knew. There were photos too and it started from 2004 so I'm like catching up on his life! At this point I'm feeling like a stalker right.. Am I? I'm finding out all these things about him, some of them pretty personal. It's so strange reading about someone you know but don't know at the same time, has that ever happened to anyone?
I want to get in touch with him again, I want to come out to him because he's the only gay person I know and I feel like he would understand what I'm going through. Or is that dumb? Sort of like 'I'm gay, you're gay, let's be friends again!' But I'm not sure if I want him to know that I've been reading his blog.. he might feel violated. Should I comment on his blog or email him or something? I don't wanna be like a creapy stalker, just wanna catch up for coffee. I'm so curious about how he came out, when he did, who he had the hots for and why he didn't talk to me about stuf. We used to hang out a lot, do dorky things together and we share a lot of memories.. god he was there for me when my grandma died.. I just remembered, wow now I'm getting emotional. And I was such an asshole to him, hmm I was a general asshole when I was younger come to think of it..
But he's got this whole new life, flashy job, designer clothes etc you get my drift.. and he might not want to be associated with an old childhood friend who is like the total opposite. He's the sweetest guy but possibly too good for me now? (But I still think he's a dork hehe) I dunno I just miss him.. and I was "moved" by his blog. Tell me your thoughts. Please.