Here I go again....

EGLolita's picture

I thought I was DONE with this....
After a year of me staying away from the razors, I just couldn't do it, and I feel like a fool..
I am a fool.
I know that.
Especially because I don't know why I did it, and then I did it again?
Man, I suck.
I want to and I don't want to all at the same time... I like the way it feels, and I hate how it makes me feel all at the same time, and it'd ridiculous!
And here we go! This starts up, and now I'm really starting to question myself again - DO I like guys?
Maybe.
I don't like this............. I don't like going back and forth like this, because it was almost instantly my mindset changed.
One day, it's no thank you, the next it's maybe so.
Really, maybe so.
I change my mind too much.

My 'best friend' back home doesn't call me, my other one has something in her brain, and the closest thing to a best friend here just decided to go on home study, leaving me to deal with my thoughts alone.
Damn her.

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BItterfly's picture

Hey dude, I have been there

Hey dude, I have been there and done that. If you need to talk to someone please don't hesitate, I'm here to listen and help you if you would like it. Or just someone to talk to, sometimes that's all we need.

raining men's picture

Oh yeah

It is one hell of an addiction. I'm sorry its back. Don't change you're mind about it though, stop thinking about it so much. Philsophsing can make things much worse

"Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suf-fer-ing"