I'm Riku now! I've been wanting to change my username for a while, but I finally got around to it. I'm still me, but I rather be called Riku anyways. *nods* I hope not too many people are confused.
So you're probably wondering what happened, I sent Sora an e-mail that basically asked her to be my girlfriend right? Sora came over, and she checked her e-mail. (I told her too. Since I knew she haddn't yet.) And by the time she has the browser up I've left the room. I sat in a different room and listened to her type. (I was littarly shaking.) And she came in and hugged me. Then we avoided the subject and watched stuff on youtube for a little while, and then she brought up her e-mail account on Yahoo again and started sending me something and then she kicked me out of the room. And so I waited. And then she told me to check my e-mail.
She sent me two e-mails, the first one said that she wouldn't be my girlfriend but we'll be best friends for life, and the second one, the one she wanted me to read, said that she would if I let her go out with boys and lead a "normal life" whatever that is. But... It took about a half hour for it to sink in. I couldn't belive that she said yes. Sooo... I decided I'd let her go out with boys, for now. Because I understand that she wants to experiment and stuff.
So I'm really confused. But really, really happy! ^_^ She slept over, and we hugged a lot. And we talked about things. And it was really nice. I think the reason that she said no intialy probably has something to do with peer pressure and curiosity. But I'm okay with that for now. Though it's sort of like walking on thin ice.
Well, anyways. You can probably expect the amount of journal entries I write to go down, at least a little bit.
It's sort of funny, not much has changed between us except we hug more, and we're more open with each other. And as a plus we're both totally lost. Neither of us has ever had/ been a girlfriend before. So we're just like "Okaaay... What now?" XD But I guess things will get a little less akward after a while.
In other news, I promised my mom that I'd go to Florida in the winter. But I don't want to talk to my grandma (My mom is living with her.) And plus, I'm partly afraid they might try to keep me there. It's unlikley that I'll stay there for much longer than I want to though. I'm not totally brainless. But it would be a mess. And besides that, Grandma is going to ask me about... BOYS. >_< I really don't want her to. I hate, hate, hate lying. And I can see the lecture already
"You should go to school, public school, you'll meet kids there, and then you can start dating. It's not good for you to be by youself all of the time. You should wear makeup. And why don't you wear dresses and girly clothes? You almost look like a boy! I'm going to take you clothes shopping. And I'll buy you dress shoes too! Tell me when you get a crush on a boy! And when you start dating, and when you get a boyfriend! I want to know eeevrything about you. You shouldn't wear shirts that are so big on you. Stop slouching! You should straighten your hair. NO you CAN'T dye it purple!" And I think you get the idea. I don't hate her. (Hate is pratically an impossible emotion for me.) I don't like her very much. But I love her because she's family... Weird. Also, she'd probably freak if I came out to her. Like, explode.
And then there's my grandad who has threatened to call the police and claim my dad was kidnapping me if didn't meet him at the mall. (I was pretty upset at him already since he's fasley accused my dad of kidnapping before. You don't apoligize to a person by threatining to do it again.) So, I don't really want to talk to him either. And this is why I'm really bitter around them. And why I'm sort of dreading my trip to Florida. And I don't wanna leave Sora either. :( *clingy* It's like, really unlikley but it would rawk if she could come.
Anyways. I'm actually really happy right now. Though I'm still confused. I have to talk to Sora about the dating boys thing though. And I sort of want to tell my mom about Sora and stuff. Because my dad knows. (Well, he knows all up until the she's actually my girlfriend part.) But I dunno. It'd be weird. Mabye I'll tell her when she comes up for the court thing.
And also, my dad's birthday is tomorrow. And I don't know what I'm going to do. I'll probably paint a card for him or something. Watercolor pencils are like, the only thing I'm good at.
Okay I'm done for now.