everything takes a wrong turn

scandalboy's picture

ok, i was feeling quite good quite recently. i was sure about everything - i knew what my plans were this week, i was confident about the trip i'm taking, and i knew what i wanted.
now though, i'm totally not sure on anything. like my plans for today. i was going on a trip to the valley today with a good friend. the valley is THE hippest place in the city. it's all art galleries, funky clothes shops, cool little indie music shops, i.e. it's the shit, i love it there. it also has a bit of a rep as a gay hangout (well, where i'm from it does) so i'm very comfortable there. it used to be kinda rough, it still is, but things have settled down (when i'm there things are ok). so anyway, plans were checked, we were taking the train together, rah rah rah, until i get a message saying that she can't come and that she's really sorry and how she's going to make it up to me.... i kind of expected it. these things seem to happen to me a lot, so i didn't really get my hopes up. but then i was hugely disappointed, so i rang around, asking people if they want to come with me. i finally asked this girl i know called joanna, and she said yeah, sounds fun.
then she says she can't come on wednesday.
i say, "how about thursday?"
"Yeah, ok. but i don't think my mum would be too cool with the valley. can we go anywhere else?"
"Why don't we just go into the city itself then?"
"But then we'll have a little adventure in the valley!"

so that was that. but i still would have rather done my original plans with jess. and i don't know if it will be fun with joanna, it will be totally different. and i have a funny feeling that i'll get stood up again.

also, i'm really worried about my holiday to melbourne. i'm going to be living with my half sister and her 3 kids. she has 2 boys and a girl. i'm worried about the oldest boy, he's 14 (His uncle [me] is 2 years older than him!!!!!!!!!) and i don't know if he'll like me or not. will be get along, or not? like if they lived up here, he would be at school with his uncle! i just want them to like me, but i don't know if i will, cause i haven't seen them in about 10 years. god i'm worried!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also i'm thinking of coming out to a friend of mine. he's gay, but hasn't told me. i just need some support, it's hard doing this by yourself.


Y - GuRl's picture


Hey having your mates bail on you sucks but try not to take it personally because I'm sure they don't mean to hurt you. You might have a great time with Joanna, who knows? The valley sounds like Brunswick st here in Melbourne, so you could go there when you're down here. Hope you have a great time here and don't worry younger kids usually look up to older kids so you probably will seem pretty cool to them. And as for your gay friend, he'll probably be really happy if you came out to him. Why wouldn't he be? Good luck with it all!

scandalboy's picture

lol thanks btw i got stood

lol thanks btw i got stood up again. i ended up going to the movies with another mate today instead. and yeah i really want to come out to him, he'll be pretty cool with it (He should be - he's flamin' too!)