Insecurites, reawakened again...

Icarus's picture

*sighs*

i thought i was over this shit. but it seems to have reared its ugly head again. i'll spare you the details and just let you know that when i get depressed, i GET DEPRESSED. this is not, "Oh, i feel kinda sad." This is, "I'd like to jump off the deck and break my neck right now just to make the negative feelings go away." and tomorrow's christmas eve.

i need a hug. badly. does anyone have a hug to spare?

also, i figured out that i'll never be in a relationship as long as i live. i'm just not girlfriend material. i don't have that little personality zip that some girls seem to have. a friend? sure. flirt? why not. girlfriend? nope. what really sucks, is that the reason i had this revelation is because i'm watching two of my friends start to hook up right before my eyes.

Joy.

there, now i've gone and depressed you all. merry effing christmas.

Note: At least i get to spend new years' eve/day with my two best friends in the entire world.

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alya's picture

nothing iz real john

nothing iz real
john lennon
HUGS yeah im depressed to :( but yeah hugzz

hebrew freak's picture

hugs!

hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs! always hugs, always. i love hugs. you need em, i got em. though, in your case, i think i may be bringing some chocolate and/or a pint of ice cream. as my friends and i say, we know there arent any answers at the bottom of a pint of ben & jerry's, but there's no sense in not looking!

*she's the mistake i would always gladly continue making*

pink hair on girls's picture

HUGS!!!!

LOTS AND LOST OF HUGS!!!!! hughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughughug
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make love not war . . . . or be abstinent and bomb everybody!!!!
also, happy holidays!!!!!!!

Inkblot's picture

Hugs

I'm sorry sweetie. Hang in there. I really don't know what to say, I get the same way. Hugs again.

Do I shock you darling?
-Sally Bowles, Cabaret

patnelsonchilds's picture

A multitude of hugs. As I

A multitude of hugs.

As I said in another post, you may want to consult your doctor about an anti-depressant if your depression is persistent and crippling, like mine was. Nowadays I rarely get into a funk that keeps me down for very long. It really made a huge difference in my life.

Hope you feel better soon.

- Pat Nelson Childs
"bringing strong gay
characters to Sci-Fi & Fantasy"


www.myspace.com/patnelsonchilds

yep_im_a_stalker's picture

I would give you A hug..

...but instead I'll give you MANY hugs.

We all feel a little down and out. And it's the holidays so everyone is like "I SHOULD be happy" so it's even more depressing because we think that everyone else IS happy. That can make it even more lonelier.

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We don't have to be stars exploding in the night
Or electric eels under the covers
We don't have to be
Anything quite so unreal
Lets just be lovers

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shinedownkicksyouras's picture

I have multitude of hugs to

I have multitude of hugs to spare...HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS

the ghost's picture

*Hugs*

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent-Eleanor Roosevelt

Feather's picture

Hugs and Hugs And... More Hugs

*Millions and Billions and Zillions of Hugs*
I hope you like hugs, because that's a lot of 'em.

Mikki's picture

Hugs!!

awww, don't be depressed.That makes me sad:(
Never ending hugs!!!!