i thought i was over this shit. but it seems to have reared its ugly head again. i'll spare you the details and just let you know that when i get depressed, i GET DEPRESSED. this is not, "Oh, i feel kinda sad." This is, "I'd like to jump off the deck and break my neck right now just to make the negative feelings go away." and tomorrow's christmas eve.
i need a hug. badly. does anyone have a hug to spare?
also, i figured out that i'll never be in a relationship as long as i live. i'm just not girlfriend material. i don't have that little personality zip that some girls seem to have. a friend? sure. flirt? why not. girlfriend? nope. what really sucks, is that the reason i had this revelation is because i'm watching two of my friends start to hook up right before my eyes.
there, now i've gone and depressed you all. merry effing christmas.
Note: At least i get to spend new years' eve/day with my two best friends in the entire world.