I'm a 16 year old female who feels trapped in my own body. I feel like there was a mistake with me being born female, I'm supposed to be a man. I am a man, just not physically. And I'm struggling. I've recently come out to my therapist, to my mom and to some of my friends. There is no question in my mind how I am supposed to have been, I have felt this way all my life, for as long as I can remember. In the privacy of my room I would be a boy, and around others I was a girl because they would never believe I was a boy. It got worse once I hit puberty. I would look in the mirror and wonder why I was made this way, that it was all a big mistake.
I used to think maybe I was a leasbian. But I'm not a lesbian. A lesbian is a woman who is attracted to a woman, and I'm a man who is attracted to straight women (inside a female body.) I plan to start getting therapy for this, and eventually testosterone therapy, eventually surgery. It can't happen soon enough.
I'd like to find people, transgenders, transsexuals, who are like me, particularly transsexual men. I would like someone I could talk to, someone I could relate to.
I also have questions, of course.
Any response is greatly appreciated.