I just got a bunch of gay library books! I have Annie on My Mind, Geography Club, and Order of the Poison Oak. I looked for some more novels by Julie Anne Peters, but I couldn't find any. Darn. I'm currently reading Annie on My Mind. It is SUCH a beautiful book. The writing is like poetry. Now I want a copy of it that actually belongs to me, and I haven't even finished reading it yet! Wow. This is the first fictional book I've read with gay main characters.
I also paid my first bill today. I paid off my library fines with my own money, and the cost amounted up to almost thirty dollars. I saved the money myself. I feel proud.
I've been writing up a storm lately. I've been writing songs and guitar parts to go with them, and I've also been rewriting the novel I was working on before I got writer's block. I've been playing the guitar a lot, too. It's fun.
I'm still smitten with my crush. I read somewhere that scientists have found that the experience of being in love with someone is similar to an addiction, and I can completely empathize. I feel as though I'm addicted to this girl or something. Today when my mom had picked us up from school and we were dropping her off at her house, I kept on thinking, "No, don't leave, please don't go, don't leave me!" I had been busy staring at her, and I didn't want to stop. After she had left, the car felt sort of...empty. It was a strange experience.
Operation: D.I.S.C.O.V.E.R. has pretty much been stalled. (If you don't know what I'm talking about, look at one of my previous journal entries, because it's complicated and I don't want to explain it all over again.) I've been trying to get my crush alone, and I asked her if she wanted to go out with me sometime. (Not in a dating way, just in a friends way.) She said that yes, she'd like to go to the park or something together, but she hasn't really followed up on it. I think she was just saying "yes" to be nice. My mom's been trying to help me set up a date with her. Mom doesn't know about Operation: D.I.S.C.O.V.E.R., though, and she just thinks I want to spend time with her.
Well, that's pretty much all that's going on in my life right now. TTFN! (Ta-Ta For Now)