Things have went from bad to worse, within the space of a few days....:(
I ended up cutting today...I didn't even really mean to...I just did..I wanted to feel the pain. But now I'm panicked as fuck, because I go for another orientation tomorrow, and I'm not sure if we have to wear our scrubs (short sleeved) or not....Needless to say, I cut on my arm. But I didn't even really cut....I used the sharp edge of a pen cap...Lol.
Another thing is that I go to get my results for my needle I got the other day...I think the needle is what triggered it...Just talking about it now, almost makes me want to cut again, but I can't, because Mom and Dad are gonna find out eventually...and I still want to go to school to see Ms. Slackson. Last time I tried to kill myself I stayed home for three weeks..Anyways I gotta go cuz it's supper time.