Well I am meeting up with my best friend in a couple of days, to pretty much just hang out together all day. I organised to meet up with her this week with the intention of coming out to her. But now I am scared and doubting myself. I really want to do it, but I'm scared shitless. I have felt ready for about the last month or so to just do it, but now that the time seems to be looming, I just feel un-easy.
It seems the reasons that I wanted to do it for, are also the ones that are scareing me now. I just want to be open and honest with her. I hate lieing to her. But once she knows its like the image she has of who I am now will be shattered. I am not sure of how she will take it, she has told me before that she doesn't really care if someone is gay "its just love".
I think I am just going to go for it and tell her despite my doubts at the minute... I don't want to be sitting here in 6 months time still mad at myself for being stuck here in the closet.
Ok so this entry is kind of a ramble, but if anyone has any advice on it, it would be appreciated.Thanks.