Sora (My Best friend/ sort of girlfriend) came over. I think the tension between us is a little thicker or something. We didn't hug today. We normally greet eachother that way. I wish I could break the tension but I don't know how. Every time I want to say something it gets caught in my throat. Or if I try to do something I freeze up. It's really weird. I guess I just have to try harder or something.
But even so, we're still really close... In e-mails I'm really open to her, but I'm not like that in real life. I don't know why. I wish I could be, but I always freak out. And when I try to think of a reason that I should be scared, I can't think of one. But that dosen't make the fear go away.
I'm so pathetic. I wish I could just get over it. Why is it so hard? I'm so weak. x_x
My sister has been calling me a lot today. It's nice to talk to her even though I can't understand her very well. (I have trouble hearing people over the phone.)
My mom is sick. It's probably my fault, she gets sick when she's upset. And she's upset because I said that I'd go to Florida in March, instead of Febuary, because the week I'm supposed to go I'm really busy. (My cousins get off, I think Sora has off too, and there's a convention I'm going too.) So I said I'll go in March, and then a few hours later she called me back saying that I must hate her, and I had to explain to her that I don't hate her but I'd like to spend time with my friends and family when I can, and since I can't change the date of the convention, or when the schools give vacation, then I can just go some other time.
And today I heard that she's sick. It's probably my falut. She got sick when I told her that I didn't want to move down there too. I'm worried about her. I don't like that she's worrying so much that she's hurting herself.
Also, I'm sorry that I haven't commented on like, anything latley. ^^'