life is a little confusing... okay okay A LOT confusing!!!

lookin to the future...'s picture

so, my best friend and i have been starting to have a "thing" over the last couple of weeks... we had both admitted feelings for each other yadda yadda yadda....

anyways last night she catches me totally off guard and is just like "well i don't think i'm really all that attracted to you anyways" WTF??? that's totally the opposite of what she had said five days earlier... where did that come from? i know she is very confused about her sexuality but.. man...

then she launches into a big discussion of how christian she is and her whole straight edge thing... both of which i totally support but... then it just gets better when she's like "i think trevor and i are going to start dating..." HOLD UP!!! trevor is her ex but is not religious whatsoever and has sex and drinks on a regular basis so i'm thinking her whole thing about how important not breaking edge is is bullshit.... for those of you who don't know what straight edge is it's a commitment not to do drugs, drink or have sex (it's a big thing up here in washington with rocker kids....)

so i can accept that she doesn't want to be with me but man she is confusing...

and then today my mom (background story: she has been with a women for the last 13 years but mostly just out of convenience -- she definitely isn't gay... just trust me on that one) anyways today we were walking down the street and she says to me (as a guy passes) "oh he's cute...." and my response in a totally lighthearted tone was "remember mom, not really my thing?" and she totally flips out on me and is like "jesus christ why do you always have to remind me... why is it such a big deal to you" and i didn't even respond to that... it's so frustrating when parents say they are supportive but then do shit like that... confusing, rude, hurtful, ugh!!!...

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hellonwheels's picture

lol...

My mom kinda did the same thing one time, in front of my cousin...I was like 'mom!!!WTF?'....lol. So things are basically the same w/ you and j...hmm, well maybe u guys just aren't in the same place right now. just give it time and see what happens. oh, and respond to my response I sent u on myspace. later jordin.

Mental wounds not healing, driving me insane, i'm goin' off the rails on a crazy train- the ozzman