whell, i figured i should post this here. grrrr . . . . i wrote half of it, then went to formatting options, then when i went back, it was ALL GONE!!!
First Name: Kyra
Oasis Name: pink hair on girls
Town & City: piedmont, ca
Bio Paragraph: I am 13 years old and i live in a small town in california. I like to play soccer, basketball, and horsebackride. I also play piano, sax, a bit of drums and guitar, and i sing. I am a lesbian, and i am currently in the closet, which i plan to change eventually.
Steven was always an idiot. I just didn't know he was a homophobic idiot. I first realized it in History class. He was going around yelling, "Spear the queer!"
And spearing people with his hand. I told him that it was an awful thing to say, and he told me he wasn't "spearing" people because they were gay, he was spearing people because they were weird, or short, or tall, or nerdy. Of course. I didn't believe him for a second, but i blew it off. I figured he wouldn't do it again, and if he knew that i was one of the queers he was "spearing," he wouldn't have done it at all. He stopped saying that particular phrase for a while, but he was always saying other awful things, like, when he was walking to PE with me and my friends (who were all girls), and he said,
"I'm the only guy in a group of a bunch of girls, I feel so gay!" (I know, it makes no sense). Or the time he was giving people hugs (actually, giving girls hugs, not guys) and he said,
Or, "I don't hug guys. It makes me feel gay." Or just whenever he thinks something is stupid or wrong, he says,
"That's so gay!"
He assumed that everyone is straight. One lunch, he was talking about testicles (don't ask me why, he's a pervert). And i said, "Wait, Steven, you like testicles?"
and he said, "No way! And look who's talking. You're straight, so eventually, you'll like testicles too."
You have no idea how much i wanted to kill him. But at least he wasn't "spearing queers" anymore. At least for a while. The comments he made were homophibic, but not obvioulsy so. "Spear the queer!" was definitely obvious homophibia, and i hated it. I thought he had stopped, but i was wrong. He did it again at a few weeks later. It was at lunch, and i guess he was hyper or something, be he started the same thing. Running around, "spearing the queers." I said,
"Steven! That's an awful thing to say!"
and he said, "What, are you queer or something?"
That made me really angry. Why would he expect that every person that's for gay rights is gay? And even though i am gay, i could just as well be straight and think the same things. So I said,
"No, Steven." and he said,
"Do you even know what queer is?" I wanted to scream at him, "I FUCKING AM QUEER, YOU IDIOT!" but of course, I didn't. Instead, I said,
"Of course I know what queer is. I'm not an idiot, like you."
He still makes comments. I don't know if he'll ever stop. I'm scared to come out because I don't know if he will make fun of me. But i think every gay teen has people in their life like that. I know Steven isn't the only one in my life. He's just the one i know best, the one who makes it hurt most when he says the things he does about people like me.
so that's it. Steven isn't his real name, but i dont want people to read it and know it was me talking. is it too short?