Im sorry if this is confusing.
Ive liked this girl for 3 years but 8 months ago we started dating. ironically, it was about the same time her and her boyfriend started dating. at first our relationship wasnt official. we didnt recognize the day we started going out until about 4 months later. but i would say we're pretty serious. sad thing is, her relationship with her boyfriend is just as serious if not more. i think im putting a lot of effort into our relationship. but basically its just late night phone calls and online conversations. we never see eachother at school and we havent hung out in weeks. i miss her a lot and honestly i would do anything just to see her. i always ask her to hang out with me but its always the same response "i have work" or "i already have plans." but her plans are always with her boyfriend. every spare moment she gets, she spends it with him. and when i ask her to hang out once for like an hour, she cant. she cant take an hour out of her time to just go to dinner with me. am i just insane? am i just that self obsorbed? i havent seen her in a really long time, but whenever i talk to her, she never seems to care about it as much as i do. when she cares about something, shes passionate about it. i just feel like her passion with him is overriding her passion for me. i understand the fact that she loves him. its a hard concept to grab, but i can handle that now. its just i, dont want him to get in the way of her and i. not as much as he does. i see her once every month basically and he sees her every day. am i just really jealous? i have no idea what to do. im sorry if you read this because i really cant put everything into words. i just dont know what i should do. i do talk to her. and i do let her know how much i miss her. but to her im just complaining about how i never see her. i mean i just dont think its fair. she doesnt know how to ballance out her life very well. i love her and i would do anything for her. but i feel like im losing her.