I was watching tv last night with my mom like most other nights and one of the characters on the show (i forget which one) was talking about being an aunt. I started saying how sad it is that i'll never get to be an aunt because my sister doesn't want to have children. At the time i was totaly forgetting that you can also be an aunt (or uncle) from your spouse's siblings. Which my mom was quick to bring up with a "but then there's your partner's brothers or sisters" and i quickly changed the direction of the conversation with a but it won't be the same because they won't be blood related.
Anywhos the pint of this is that my mother didn't say husband she said partner. I haven't yet come up with the courage to tell her that i'm a lesbian. But i'm definitaly thinking she knows. Now this is not the only indication or the only time she has used the term partner instead of husband.
I'm thinking that the next time i will just continue on with the discussion maybe come out to her. Because it would have been a great oppurtunity to tell her by saying something like and on that note mom i think you may already know this and it may be hard to actualy hear but i just want to clear the air. Mom i'm a lesbian. Or something along that lines. It of course wouldn't have come out that great.
I'm a thinker. It takes me awhile to think things out and make a decision and then i have to make sure it's the right one for me. Even a simple conversation with my friend i wait 5 minutes to IM them making sure of what i want to say making sure it doesn't make me sound rude and thinking further along in the conversation.
On the phone it's horrible because there are long pauses as i think of what to say.