It's almost my birthday... I'll be fifteen. What a year it's been. Crazy. I kind of want to do a year in review type thing, but it's so late. Too late. I'm exhausted.
I'm really conflicted. I likelikelike this girl a lot, but she's dating this boy whom I hate. And not because of that, either! He's an asshole. From her dating history, she seems to like them. A lot. I dunno...
I went to a party today. It was awkward and weird and I just want to avoid my friends for a while. My two friends, they've been feeling a little negative towards each other and it's building up and they're letting it. They're both too passive to do anything. I've tried everything I could think of to help, and you know what? They don't listen to me. So I'm going to stop. I give up. I really don't care anymore.
Lately I've been feeling intensely apathetic. Also, really sad and mad and upset for NO REASON. Like... I was crying the other day and I had no idea why. I just felt so sad. It's weird! I don't know why I'm like this. I'm not PMSing. I don't know what it is.
I feel like a big change is going to come about soon. Something's going to happen.
It's 12:41 in the morning, and I should go to sleep. Goodnight, oasis. Love to you all.