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electricity's picture

For the first time my mom and I openly discussed my sexuality. I had left her a letter Sunday before going to my friend's house [same day I told those friends] and had told her that I don't really want to talk about, I just didn't feel comfortable. And actually, I didn't feel comfortable about it today... not completely, anyway.

I told her that S and C know and that I hadn't told Y, but was going to. Mom asks "So you're bi?" and I just felt the blood rush to my head, I don't know, it feels wierd saying that I am bi. I answered "Yeah, I guess... I could go out with a guy, and the same with a girl... I guess." But there's no guess to it. I would. It just sounds so... I don't know, strange.

I'm taking assumption I'll work into comfort now that I'm open about it with people [some, anyway] and that it will become more natural to talk about it and such.

My mom asked if I had based my realization on my attraction for Emily Haines. I said no, and if that was the only thing making me lean towards homosexuality, then it was probably nothing. On the phone with C I mentioned this and she said that almost everyone probably has an attraction to someone of their same sex eventually. [I wished she was hinting that she had that attraction for me.]

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whateversexual_llama's picture

As much as it's

As much as it's uncomfortable now, discussing it and facing the uncomfort WILL make it easier. Your time hiding it makes it hard to go out and talk about it, but it'll get easier. So *raises glass of chapagne selzer* here's to taking the next big step!

Whatever I did, I didn't do it.

whateversexual_llama's picture

As much as it's

As much as it's uncomfortable now, discussing it and facing the uncomfort WILL make it easier. Your time hiding it makes it hard to go out and talk about it, but it'll get easier. So *raises glass of chapagne selzer* here's to taking the next big step!

Whatever I did, I didn't do it.