i think a lot of people misunderstood my last post and i don't blame you 'cause i kinda did rant off topic and then i wasn't really clear on what i was trying to say....but for those of you who commented (THANKS btw) and read my last post, i DID NOT go on a date with him, all i did was hang out with him at the mall as friends. He asked me out later that day and i just thought that i could give him a chance, but made sure that he knew that it would only be ONE date and that...i am into girls.
He knew all this way before i met him in person and stuff...but he still asked me and i refused but the sucker wouldn't give up, thats why i kinda gave in because i admired him for his guts to still ask and he was pretty coo & like everyone said...it would be only one date, what could happen right?. But i guess i don't have to worry much anymore about it 'cause he's not talking to me anymore.
why is he not talking to me anymore?
Because he thinks that i don't care.
*sigh* ok this is what happened...he was pretty much texting me the whole day from when i came out of my class and when i went to my cousin's house. i wasn't texting much 'cause; 1) family comes first, and 2) couldn't really make convo out of the things he brought up...but he was like "are you ok?" and i was like "yeah why?" and he said that i wasn't texting him much and he was wondering if i was bored talking to him and stuff and i told him that i wouldn't be texting him if i didn't want to talk to him.
so...he said something but then i had to go to work and i was in the back of my dad's truck...i didn't text him until he texted me at work asking if i was busy. i told him yeah and then he said he'd text me later and then he texts me this :( and i asked what was wrong and he said that he missed me.
Idk...but i had nothing to say to that 'cause honestly i didn't miss him. But i ended up telling him that it seemed like we were on two different levels; i was on a level that i don't care what happens and i'm not expecting anything to happen and stuff whereas he's on the other level where he expects something to happen. (was it wrong for me to say that?)
he replied back by saying that he guesses that i didn't miss him, we said some other stuff to each other...i could tell that he was mad or irritated...whichever, but the thing that i remembered him telling me before he stopped talking to me was this:
i guess you don't care. i don't want to be friends with someone who doesn't care about their friends. i guess you were nice on the outside but a different person on the inside
...honestly...that hurt. it really did. but whatever if he wants to think that then that's fine with me. i guess that i'm the bad guy in this situation.
fuck...in mostly every single problem or 'thing' i get into...i always seem to be the bad guy (NO i am not seeking pity, fuck that's the last thing i want). people might as well just stay outta my way and not get involved with me before i ruin their life as i usually do with everyone.
...fuck life already.