Why bother anymore?

FearNotTheQueer's picture

I find that life is made up of nothing but disappointments that no matter how you try to avoid them, they will find you and they will make sure to hurt you as much as possible. Poetry says it better than a paragraph

I'm a closed
darkened black soul
I hide in a corner
My back turned away
Don't look at my
tears running down
my face
Emotastic a stupid word
faggot homo and other
oppressive words
I can be more
I try to be more
But you'll never
see me as more

I need a good cry

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Campfire's picture

Hmm, seems from reading your

Hmm, seems from reading your profile and this post you've had a harder time than others that have been privileged.

I suggest you focus on the future. You're not going to live where you live now for the rest of your life. Work hard, save some money, and move country or state in a few years when you're in your 20s. It's doable. People do it all the time. You'd be a lot more free to live your life in New York, Canada or the UK than you are in California.

If you're depressed/angry/both about your mum then go and see a counsellor.

But also remember you're not the only one feeling like crying, I betcha there's plenty of gay people in California and indeed the USA wanting to cry at the exact same point in time as you are. You're not alone! Life gets better! *hugs*

"If we were to wake up some morning and find that everyone was the same race, creed and color, we would find some other cause for prejudice by noon."
- George Aiken