you said you'd wait for me...so where are you now?

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"I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I’m missing you and I’m wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know; so now I’m all alone

Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn’t give me a chance
With you not around it’s a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they keep runnin’ down my face
Why did you turn away?...

she said that she'd wait for me.
...that our love was unlike any other.
she said that we were meant to be.
...that we would be together...forever.

but she went off and found someone new.
someone she knew, she didn't see herself with.
so she told me again.
that she would wait for me.
and we would have another chance.
another chance at love.
another chance at fate.
another chance...at forever.

sigh. she the love of my life. the only one that made me happy. the one that took my heart and broke it. broke it into a million pieces. this is the girl that i wanted to spend my life with. i was willing to go against my family, and my friends...just to be with her.

why does the one person that could make you happy, be the one to make you sad?

...that's life

why am i in such a depressing mood? idk.

i texted her (by HER i mean my ex) because i got paid today and i just told her that i had money for the bill...i was expecting her to text me back about it. she didn't. i sent it about 11 this morning and it's already 10 at night. she can't say she never got the text. but fuck it. whatever.

"Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away

I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough to let go of my pain
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain
From my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way..."

these tears of mine.
falling like the rain.
the soft drops upon these letters.
the words are a blur.
a blur of lost love.
a love now gone.
lost with the wind.

"Sometimes the truest lies, are the ones we tell ourselves
the very last time, we said goodbye. inside we meant don't go..."

**kudos to;
- Elliot Yamin for the song, Wait For You
- B44 for the song, How Did We End Up Here?
- Keith Urban for the song, Tonight I Wanna Cry