I'm trying to get over my straight crush, and IT. IS. EFFING. HARD. I've had this gigantic crush on her for years now, ever since fifth grade. I've always had this tiny hope in the back of my mind that she might secretly be gay/bi and not realized it yet, but that small hope has been squashed by the terrible hammer of reality. (Yes, I'm going to stop using weird metaphors now. Please don't worry.)
God, I'm like this emotional wreck now. I can't even look at her or I'll start staring at her. She looks so darn GOOD. But if I start staring at her, then I'll get upset and I'll want to cry, because she's straight and I CAN'T HAVE HER.
This is insane. All I do now is sit around and either read or play video games. I can't work on my novel now. It's too dang hard. I can't concentrate. My creative juices aren't flowing. (Um, sorry about that last metaphor. I'm really trying to stop using them in this entry, but I don't think it's working.)
I hate my crush!! She's keeping me from writing! Writing is almost my one true love! How can she do this to me??
I feel awful. I think I have my first broken heart. Ouchies.
Does anyone have any advice about how to get over a straight crush fast? I really need it. I WANT TO BE ABLE TO WRITE AGAIN!! PLEEEEEEEEEEEASE HELP!