So im not quite sure how to explain this, but im going to do the best i can.
My girlfriend just broke up with her boyfriend. her and i have kind of had this relationship on the side for a while now. but her and her boyfriend broke up and it should be all smiles. but its not. he broke up with her and i can just tell she still loves him and shes hoping he'll come crawling back to her. shes deserves so much better than him. but anyway, they were going to go to prom together. about 10 months ago, she promised me if she didnt have a date, that we would go together. so prom is in about a month and now she says "it wont work." i understand she doesnt want everyone to think shes a lesbian, but its junior prom and we could pull off the friend thing. we could make it work if we really wanted to go together. i really want to go with her and ive made that perfectly clear. but her answers are always "i dont know what im doing yet."
today i found out she asked this random guy from work to go with her. i dont even know what to think of this. all day ive been trying to hold back my tears. i told her that i found out about her and her "new date" and how disappointed i was; first that we're not going together and second because im not going to see her at all that day. i was thinking maybe we would hang out instead of going to prom. but to her, this was too much. i "may have been taking this too far." so she says.
Am i as insane as she makes me feel? really, i just miss my girlfriend. and right now i dont feel like shes treating me like one. she thinks she can just stomp all over this relationship and everytime i try and let her go, i just cant do it.
I dont know what to do, what to think, how to handle this. i love her. with everything i have, but sometimes i dont know about her.