Jack off Jill is a good band.
A little triggering but that doesn't matter since I weakly gave into the need this morning. [Well 2:00 am.] I can't sleep, I feel like I'm slipping back into that hole I had just barely escaped with my life intact. Those almost hopeless mainly apathetic bordering on suicidal thoughts are creeping back into my mind, I feel trapped. Normally I would take off, go to another country or state and get away from my life, stop doing school and just exist somewhere else. If that isn't an option I would switch schools, right now I really want to go back to the public High School but I only have a little over a month before I graduate and I don't want to fuck up my credits. I can't just leave because I have a car, which means I am tied to my work because no one else in my family can afford to pay for it. I really wish I had never bought the damn thing, I can't even drive.
x_x I feel like I have more I need to get out but I gotta go get ready to walk to work. Hurray for that, not. At least I can have a few grits before I get there, even if I'd rather be smoking a spliff.
I loath having Crushes on girls I'll never have a chance with.