I've gotten so bitter, so cynical, so apathetic, and so burnt out. And I'm a freshman in high school.
Is this what I have to look forward to? Friends, but nobody to talk to. A group to belong to, but not be a part of. I have three more years of high school then god knows how many years of college. What do I have to look forward to? After I finish college, I go to grad school, then I get a job and let it suck out my soul (what's left of it).
I feel like I'm losing my soul to projects and tests and due dates. I have no life left in me. No enthusiasm. Nothing! I can't take this.
I'm just so, so tired. Not even physically tired, although there is that. I'm mind-tired, spirit-tired. I'm ready to drop and I'm the only one who knows it. Fuck!
I have 18 days until exams, and 23 days until school's out. I hope I can make it.