To clear up a few things from my last entry, Yes I realize the Catholic church has a lot of blood on it's hands but it wasn't like LAST YEAR. It's been a while. There is at least a desire to change and adapt, to understand.
Like you say, most churches do have a little blood dripping from their hands. There is a difference in what the church believes now and what they believed some years ago. Which only shows that religion is manipulated as we all see fit. Still the Catholic Church has come to terms with the fact that some of us are gay and though they are not real happy about it, they don't excommunicate us or out us to the world flagging us as sinners.
I look at things this way. I am a practicing Catholic mostly to make my mom happy. I do believe in God and I don't think he makes mistakes, I think the religions just misinterpret things grossly when it comes to homosexuality.
Some say "If homosexuality is seen as wrong by organized religion then God is dead to me."
God isn't religion. Religion is a man-made method that we created to worship God, right or wrong. When I say God doesn't make mistakes I mean that I have come to have a relationship with my creator that is independent of religion. I am not a mistake just because I am gay and He knows that.
I don't reconcile my being gay with the church, I reconcile it with God. He knows who and what I am because he is the Father. I have read the bible from cover to cover several times and I am aware that it was written by men to tell their version of what THEY wanted us to believe a very long time ago. A convenient book of rules that is somewhat outdated in society today.
The Mormon church has some very nice people among their flock, I know a few myself and the fact that "Affirmation" exists proves that there is hope for them.
Still for the hierarchy of the church, I think they need to get a clue, see what they are doing to the people they have rebuked and damaged, all because their faith in the church was strong enough to care what they thought and to care about hurting their families.
I know a lot of people here advocate coming out. I think that is something that has to be done on a case by case agenda. I can assure you that my mom would not throw me out of the house if she knew I was gay. However it would be counter-productive at this point to suddenly declare that I was gay. It is something that is still on a spiritual level with me and between me and God. I still need to sort through a lot of things, none of which are going to change who I am but better prepare me to bare my soul to my family and others.
I think a lot of people who come out are in a place where they feel they can say "Look just accept me for who I am OK?"
Not all of us are in that place in our lives. Some of us have been brought up in a world so steeped in tradition that these revelations need to be a bit more thought out. I'm one of them.
If that sounds hypocritical, I'm sorry. I know my family and friends and I think I need to gain their faith and trust before I challenge their beliefs.
This illustrates the fault of the Mormon church in my view. They have made up their mind and there is no discussion about it. They also believe what they know, should be common knowledge to all, and see to it that everyone knows, whether they are ready for it or not.
There will come a time when I will face my family and tell thrm I am gay. My mom will probably not have a problem with it.
As for having blood on their hands, the whole world has blood on their hands and it is not all about homosexuality or religion. Take our illustrious president for example. I don't know how that man sleeps at night. But that is another argument that I don't really want to get into right now.
"Being gay is not like being left handed. Being gay conjurs in the minds of people what you do it the privacy of your bedroom. This is unlike the thoughts of people contemplating heterosexuality, which is never conjured in the mind at all." -Walter Henson-
I think what Henson was trying to say was that what seems normal, need never be though about but what seems abnormal is always examined to death.
Perhaps to us, on a very primal level, it just seems a lot more normal to share our bodies with someone who has the same parts as we do than to share our bodies with someone who is different than us.
I respect all the views of those who read my journal and never intend to offend anyone. I remain open-minded so that I can expect others to be open-minded as well.