Hah, my first real show...

gaynow's picture

Lalalala, I'm finished teching my first real show! Go me! No major errors!!! I'm so proud of myself... ^^ I <3 tech. Even though sometimes I wonder if I'll ever actually get into a show, if I'll ever actually be on the stage... I miss performing. And I got, like, 5 signatures on my poster, which made me sad. Sometimes I wonder if the people I hang out with actually like me........ It's just that, in the past, I've had some "friends," these people who think I'm their best friend in the world but they're actually so annoying and clingy that I want to punch their face in. And so I'm constantly worried that I'm being that sort of over-assertive, clingy, annoying person that everyone actually hates but is too polite to say it. Ugh, I hate my insecurities. I don't think I'm actually this person..... I'm just worried that I am. And it bugs me. Damn. 'Tever, I think I'll go write my short story for English. The one that I'm leaving my comfort zone, by writing non-fantasy, non-gay. And it makes me think about similarities and differences between gay and straight romance, and makes me wonder if I'm making too big a deal about my own sexuality. Arg. Well... night.

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yep_im_a_stalker's picture

I feel that whole "am I the

I feel that whole "am I the over-assertive, clingy, annoying person that everyone actually hates but is too polite to say it" a lot. Insecurities are mad sucky. But you just gotta keep on keepin' on.

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