My first crush in a looong time and its a weird one.

ShowMeLove's picture

Yesterday I woke up around noon because its summer and I have absolutly nothing to do nor did I have anything to look forward to. So I woke up sweating a little because of this dam heat, and I looked out the window cause I heard some boys talking loudly outside. When I looked out I saw two boys and one girl sitting out on the curb in front of my lawn with their backs facing me. I looked at the girl and she turned her head to the side as she was talking to one of the boys and I realized something in the few secounds of looking at her, that I was attracted to her, I was attracted to this girl, I just had this instant attraction to her.

She reminded me a bit of the tomboy in the movie Show Me Love, her skin was the same tone or maybe a little darker and her hair was black and up in a ponytail. Her clothing from what I could see since she was sitting down, was a basic baggy T-shirt and a pair of loose jeans. And I became more attracted to her cause thats me, I hate wearing tight clothes, they're not for me and I rarely see girls that where regular tee's and loose jeans. It was attractive to me that she was hanging with boys the way I do she was a regular girl and someone that I could get along with, if only I could meet her.

I tried to think of a way to go out there and meet her, like if only my dog didn't bark at everyone, I could take her out there and let her run up to the girl and then I could say "I'm sorry about that, but she seems to like you" and then start a conversation from there...ha ha if only it were that easy. I don't know there was just something about her that made me want to take a chance and get out there and meet her. That maybe this was my chance to get a girlfriend or at least a very possibly a gay friend. I'm so shy that just the fact I was thinking about talking to someone I don't know made me think that maybe it was some kind of sign you know?

So as I was sitting on my bed looking through my window at this girl and trying to find the courage to go out there and meet her, the three of them got up. It was then that I realized that she was a he....I can't tell you how dissapointed I was I was like WTF??? how does someone look so much like a girl from one angle and then a boy the next. Man, my first real crush in a long time and it turns out its a boy. It's also funny that I was so attracted to the girl I saw but when it turned out to be a boy I was so turned off and I even went ew.....where did the girl go? Now I'm wondering If I'll ever find a 'real' girl like that again, I mean one that's like me that dresses like a tomboy and doesn't care what any one thinks. I just want someone whos regular if that makes much sense, someone who doesn't give a crap about what people think. I dunno but I hope I do find someone cause this one hurt:(

Has this happened to anyone else? like You liked someone and then they turn out to be a different gender.


gaynow's picture


Damn those feminine men. What right do they have to look like our gender???? *shakes fist*

ShowMeLove's picture

ha ha....I know, i hate

ha ha....I know, i hate getting my hopes up for nothing

nydolls1973's picture

i still think that's a horrible thing to experience!

If you lived here you'd have me! haha and like 2 others...not like we communicate...
you always condemned me and your lovers condemned me
i stood speechless
reality's jovial

ForeverEndedToday's picture

I know what you mean! I'd

I know what you mean! I'd totally go straight for Ville Valo of HIM. He looks sooo feminine: Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

moxie's picture

something like that happened

something like that happened to my straight friend at a concert. she was gushing over a *hot guy.* then someone yelled, "hey leslie!" and the *hot guy* said "i'm coming!" in a really girly voice...her *hot guy* was a chick. i guess she's been hanging out with too many lesbians. hehe.

ShowMeLove's picture

Ha ha....Thanks for the

Ha ha....Thanks for the posts and stories guys:) At least I'm not alone with the confusion of femme guys.