I wrote this for a little newsletter thing that my aunt runs up in Mendocino. Most of it's readers are middle aged lesbians, so that's my audience. Let me know what y'all think!
Life as a Teenage Dyke
"What's it like to be a gay teenager," you ask. "We came out later, in a different time. What's it like now?"
Mostly, my life right now is about school and my friends. I don’t' try too hard for good grades, but I like school well enough. It's fun and it gives us all a chance to socialize. My friends are a strange bunch. There's T, who's a loner, and Ethan, who's a sweet guy, and Racheal, my girlfriend, who's wonderful. There are others, but those three are the important ones.
My parents are important too. We get along pretty well, most of the time. They understand me a lot better than most parents do for most kids. They trust me, and give whatever respect I deserve. We can laugh together, and have a good time, and they understand that I don’t always want to be with them.
Life is pretty boring right now. It's summer, and no one's around. I should get a job, but there doesn't seem much point, seeing as I'd only be able to work for about 4 weeks before school starts again.
And here you thought that I was going to be talking about being gay. But I am, you see. Because being a teenage dyke isn't my entire life. It's not even a significant portion of it. I'm more interested in writing, or dancing in the rain.
Yes, I wear rainbows sometimes, and other gay symbols, but it's only because I want to be out to the world. I like people to know, if only so that they don’t make assumptions about me. I've found that when I’m frank about my sexuality, when I tell people that I'm gay straight out, they're much less likely to give me sideways glances, or make snide remarks. People are afraid of the unknown, and so when you hide, you are feared.
I'm lucky. I live in a fairly liberal town, and go to a generally liberal school. There will always be those who are homophobic beyond hope, but the majority of people at my school and in my town are willing to be open minded about homosexuality. They just need a little nudge.
So what's my life like? I get up in the morning and eat an apple. I go to school and laugh with my friends. I dream and worry about the big 'someday'. I try to make a difference just by being myself.