anyone else trapped in christian school?

pinkthoughts's picture

hi, i'm new here so this is my 1st forum topic.
anyway, i'm closeted with exception to my really close friends and my mother who is a super conservative christian makes me go to a private christian school. needless to say it sucks.
i was just wondering for curiosity's sake if any of you are stuck in a similar situation.

jeff's picture

Hmm...

While it might be harder to met other gay students there, my impression has always been that "repression makes the sex hotter."

But seriously, if you don't want to attend a private Christian school, where they are likely to be anti-gay, one imagines they would really have a problem with someone starting a GSA, coming out, or any other things that might tend to upset the status quo. It will either get you expelled, in a public school, in a private non-Christian school, laid, dating, and many other better options than where you are now.

Even though the school is Christian, I'd still have to think that the majority of kids are also trapped there to a large extent, and would rally behind anyone who went up against the administration.

Just my thoughts... no matter where you are, you need to figure out how to live your truth. If mom has you there to find salvation, or to lock your dick up until you get older or anything else, that is her prerogative. Yours is to do whatever you want wherever you are...

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pinkthoughts's picture

coming out to get kicked out

i've seriously considered publicly coming out at my school just to get myself booted out, but my mom is the crazy kind of person who would literally disown me and i would find myself living on the street. and i'm really not willing to put myself through that just yet.

jeff's picture

Well...

At least you are taking an active role in your life by considering all of those options...

Does the school expel gay students, though? It might be like the military, you can start acting as open as you want, but as long as you don't say it, they will try and ignore you, etc.

But, important to consider your situation when you have parents who listen more intently to their savior than their child.

That said, feel free to come here and bitch about it all every day, and we'll try and get you through it as sanely as possible. If you think your life is entirely filled with people who don't care about you, consider that changed. Welcome to Oasis.

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Anneliese's picture

Yes.. I am, and not only is

Yes.. I am, and not only is it a Christian school.. it's Catholic. Like you, I am closeted to only my close friends, for exactly the reasons you stated. Fortunately, I'm not the only homosexual there, and we take care of each other. We try to stand up for ourselves, But, we're all horrified of the consequences that go along with the church's homophobia, as I'm sure is the case with you. And, it would more than likely get the 'rents involved.
If it's at all possible, I'd suggest getting out. Your parents may not like it.. they are paying the tuition after all, and believe it or not, you're getting a good education. There are more important things in life than calculus and chemistry though. What use are they in the real world if you can't find yourself as well? Don't let the school get you down. Find a group, make some gay friends, be yourself. If you ever feel that the time is right, talk to your parents. It may take awhile, but they need to accept you too.

pinkthoughts's picture

thanks

thanks for all your support.

Zyking's picture

Well, that just sucks,

Well, that just sucks, doesn't it. You can just be yourself, and not say anything. I say wait until you can live off of yourself if you think your mom will kick you out, my moms catholic, but i think she's too loving to kick me out if i ever tell her. Well, have you been made fun of at school? Does anyone suspect you are gay?
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pinkthoughts's picture

Things have changed quite a bit.

I still go to this school, but I've come out to my mom and she's cool with it. I'm seeing someone from my work as well. Thankfully this is my last year of highschool until I'm off to colege! I don't have any gay friends at school, but the bookstore I work in is chock full of us. Funny how life works out that way. And in answer to your question about if people suspect me of being gay, yeah they definitely do seeing as I get asked pretty often.

"Some people are like slinkies, not really good for anything but they bring a smile to your face when pushed down the stairs."

WantsOut's picture

GOOD LUCK.

I feel bad... However, going to a VERY conservative public school and church (I live in Florida) I think I know how you feel.

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WantsOut's picture

WOW!!!

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Are you going to Scarborough Fair?
Parsley, sage, rosemary and thyme.
Remember me to one who live there.
He used to be a true love of mine.