Let me start out by saying that I'm very new to all of this... I've been lurking with curiosity for about a year, but after last month, I'm not sure I can be quiet much longer.
Two Septembers ago in my sophomore year, I met a girl, an absolutely beautiful (and very straight) girl who came into my life and changed me. I had just been through a suicidal depression, and she brought me back to emotional stability single-handedly. Of course, she had no idea how much she began to mean to me. Every touch gave me chills, every time we said "I love you," I interpreted it beyond the intended boundary. We were best friends, and became closer than two girls could be without being a couple.. which I knew was impossible. The physical intensity of our relationship was unbelievable.
Of course, that also meant that our "breakup" (for lack of a better term) was just as intense. Last month I came out to her. Just as I said it, she hung up the phone and never spoke to me again. Because I gave all of my time and effort to her, I'm completely lost, alone, and confused. I don't know if I still have anyone to consider a friend, anyone to support me the way she did. I don't even know if I can survive (or make myself survive) this. She was the first person I came out to, and she took it horribly. If my "best friend" would leave me because of this, what will other people do? Can I trust anyone? I'm a mess right now.
I need to move on. I need someone to trust. I can't stay like this. Any advice on how?