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nydolls1973's picture

I have a headache.
As usual.
I feel like I have an ulcer.
As usual.
I'm tired at an inappropriate hour.
As usual.
I'm mad because I'm having job difficulties.
As usual.
I hate listening to people's relationships. And seeing them.
I don't want one anymore. I'm a recluse.
I feel like shouting "DAMN ALL YOUR NAUSEATING RELATIONSHIPS!! There are more important things!! You sicken me!!" from the mountaintops.
Like yesterday, my friend started talking to some guy who ignored me (of course), and they talked for like half an hour while I waited for him to leave already so we could go back inside and practise.
I felt like telling them, "don't you have ANY manners at all?? What's wrong with you?? I don't know WHO you are gossiping about, and I don't know if you remember but we were in the middle of something. So get the fuck out, little boy who is too good to acknowledge me."
Am I the only musician who would rather practise than chatter?
I can't go to college like this. All antisocial. I'm falling apart.

I already fell apart.

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jeff's picture

err...

If you want to be a recluse, you need to stop concerning yourself with other people that want lives. The fact that it bothers you is an indication that you don't want to be a recluse.

If they want to talk, can't you do back in and practice yourself? were you doing one of those four-handed piano things or somesuch?

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nydolls1973's picture

I was thinking about it...I

I was thinking about it...I thought it would have looked bad.
But you know what else looks bad? Talking about people you know I don't know. So there. Next time I'm going inside.
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o how it hurt me sharp in the vein
it would never let me be still and still.

jeff's picture

Well...

an argument could be made that if you said, "Hi, I'm (insert name)." and joined in the discussion, it would have negated your not being included and you're not knowing them.

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nydolls1973's picture

You'd think, wouldn't you?

You'd think, wouldn't you? He still gets a huge exit since I don't know anyone he does and here's my friend who he knows well right here, what does he need to be polite to me for?
I totally waved in an amiable fashion...which was ignored.
Believe me, if I knew ANYONE they were talking about I would have said SOMETHING...no such luck
I mean, what am I supposed to contribute? "Who's that? Who's that?"
"Oh, just someone we know" "Oh. Thanks, that really helps me."
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o how it hurt me sharp in the vein
it would never let me be still and still.

patnelsonchilds's picture

Being a recluse is

Being a recluse is overrated. I've more or less been in exile for years now. It kind of sucks. Thank goodness for the internet.

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