stress, depression, and insomnia

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hi, it's 1:30 A.M here in tennesee and i'm still up.
i've been staying here with my dad and his wife for the past two weeks, sadly i'm flying out to where i live in virginia in three hours.
my school got out alot earlier than all of the other schools in my area so i have to go back on the 18th which is next week, for those of you who don't know i'm forced to go to a private christian school.
my mom and her boyfriend who is living with us fight constantly. he hates me because he's a homophobic asshole (should i have censored that?) and has figured out that i'm gay somehow, my mom doesn't believe him though so i'm not quite catching hell for it from both of them, although my mom is constantly making comments about how disgusting and wrong it is to be gay and tells me that if i am i'm going to burn in hell.
so i'm dreading going back home and for good reason.
i would much rather live with my dad and his wife laura who i haven't come out to but seem to already know and are cool and accepting (her sister is a lesbian). i 'm going to move out here to go to college at vanderbilt but that's like two years from now and not to sound cliche or anything but i'm not sure how much more of this i can take.
anyway that's what's going on with me right now.
i guess i'm gonna try to get some sleep before i go to the airport, odds are that's not gonna happen.